What is a proper relationship?
I not sure what you mean by that
maybe that is what you tell her
make you feel less guilty
I let you into my life and my family loved you
We loved each other intensly
you destroyed that
feel hurt that I have to wonder what is real
it was real to me and never felt so happy
when I was with you when things were good
like dying drying flower one by one the petals
rooted like you love
I had my dreams in my grasp now they are
nightmares that my subconscious eats away at me
you wanted to die in my arms in your 90s
doubt you live that long
you certainly dead to me
no home with a big bath
I use my camera you gave me to photograph our life
together to capture my world as I see it
now have to make my life worthwhile alone